Psalm 23
1. The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. 2. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. 3. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. 4. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. 5. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. 6. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of Lord Forever.
Trust ~ Trust means that you believe that a person will treat you well. Trust is most easily measured by risk-acceptance. ... If I trust someone, it means I'm willing to deliberately put myself in a situation where that person could hurt me by doing the "wrong" thing.
This last year I dealt with some hard things from my past. I trusted someone who said they would always be there. Someone who I allowed to get very close to me. To walk through some of the things I had not let go of. I allowed myself to trust to much. To believe that person would be there. I shared a lot. I cried a lot. I let myself feel hard things thinking that person was walking beside me.
I know this person was in my life for a reason, and I’m glad that I was able to deal with some past pain. But you know I see now that I allowed this person to take over a role (maybe out of my own desperation and my own feelings of a desire to have something I’ve never felt I had), that was and is Christ’s alone.
I’ve been incredibly hurt. I thought this person truly got me, loved me and accepted me. That no matter how hard it got or the mistakes I would make they would stand with me and cover me in love and prayer. That didn’t happen. Instead what happened is I had a meltdown, I said things I wasn’t proud of. I reacted to a situation that I shouldn’t have. And when the dust settled they were gone. Not there like was said.
I should’ve stepped back. I should’ve waited on Christ alone to make the crooked path straight. This has been a very hard thing. The difficulty is far reaching. The hurt and sadness causing crippling deep wounds that will be a scar in the quilt of my life forever.
But it won’t destroy me. It will be a time I will forever be reminded of the roles of others. That yes they are here but Christ is the one we must place our full TRUST in, not others. We must see where Christ’s Grace and Love extends. We must decrease for Christ to increase. We must trust to grow. Trust in Christ for he never fails us.
No matter what happens from here on, I will turn to the author and finisher of my Faith in Confidence and Trust with Grace and Truth.
Scripture taken from the New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson. Used by permission. All rights reserved.
1. The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. 2. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. 3. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. 4. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. 5. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over. 6. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of Lord Forever.
Trust ~ Trust means that you believe that a person will treat you well. Trust is most easily measured by risk-acceptance. ... If I trust someone, it means I'm willing to deliberately put myself in a situation where that person could hurt me by doing the "wrong" thing.
This last year I dealt with some hard things from my past. I trusted someone who said they would always be there. Someone who I allowed to get very close to me. To walk through some of the things I had not let go of. I allowed myself to trust to much. To believe that person would be there. I shared a lot. I cried a lot. I let myself feel hard things thinking that person was walking beside me.
I know this person was in my life for a reason, and I’m glad that I was able to deal with some past pain. But you know I see now that I allowed this person to take over a role (maybe out of my own desperation and my own feelings of a desire to have something I’ve never felt I had), that was and is Christ’s alone.
I’ve been incredibly hurt. I thought this person truly got me, loved me and accepted me. That no matter how hard it got or the mistakes I would make they would stand with me and cover me in love and prayer. That didn’t happen. Instead what happened is I had a meltdown, I said things I wasn’t proud of. I reacted to a situation that I shouldn’t have. And when the dust settled they were gone. Not there like was said.
I should’ve stepped back. I should’ve waited on Christ alone to make the crooked path straight. This has been a very hard thing. The difficulty is far reaching. The hurt and sadness causing crippling deep wounds that will be a scar in the quilt of my life forever.
But it won’t destroy me. It will be a time I will forever be reminded of the roles of others. That yes they are here but Christ is the one we must place our full TRUST in, not others. We must see where Christ’s Grace and Love extends. We must decrease for Christ to increase. We must trust to grow. Trust in Christ for he never fails us.
No matter what happens from here on, I will turn to the author and finisher of my Faith in Confidence and Trust with Grace and Truth.
Scripture taken from the New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson. Used by permission. All rights reserved.
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